What an eventful weekend and upcoming week for me!
Friday, I was called by the attorney's office telling me to expect some calls this weekend from potential new IPs!
First thing Saturday, I got call from IM #1, I'll call her M. It was a brief introduction with a Skype later on. We agree on a lot, so that's a good start. The situation with M, caught me a little off guard. After talking with women in my support group, I feel a little better about it. M and her husband have chosen to go with 2 surros to get the 2 baby (almost like twins, but not really), without the health risks to surro or babies that a multiple pregnancy could have. I haven't decided yet whether being a "sister surro" is a good or bad thing. It's definitely interesting, that's for sure.
Sunday (today), I waited all day for a call from IM #2, I'll call her L. It started getting late, when I started thinking, "Maybe they found a surro they know 100% they want to go with and changed their mind about me", "Maybe they just were busy", "Maybe they forgot", "Maybe they decided not to go a surro route, and changed their mind"... After talking to my fellow surro P about it, she calmed my nerves. Then, suddenly, my phone rings! We did a quick introduction. They were busy and wanted to make sure to call me but wanted to set up a face-to-face meeting, which we will do Wednesday. I don't want to say too much just yet or ask too many questions because one will lead to another, then we will have nothing do talk about on Wed.
So, we are getting somewhere. I'm so excited to be meeting these two wonderful families, learning about their unique stories, and thinking about possibly being a part of their amazing journey. Hurry up Wednesday, so I can officially get to meeting L and her husband!
Sunday, April 28, 2013
Sunday, April 21, 2013
What a Special Week... NIAW
This is the very first day is a week that is one of the few things I hold dear to my heart. This week is National Infertility Awareness Week (NIAW). This is to all you wonderful women out there. I have met so many of you great ladies. There are so many reasons out there for couples to experience the heartbreak of infertility.
Imagine yourself in your childhood.... And that ONE thing you always dreamed you would do or become when you grew up, was one day told to you may not be possible. How would you feel seeing everyone around you achieving YOUR dream effortlessly, taking it for granted, complaining about it as though it was a curse? Next time, before you open your mouth, think about how YOU would feel?
I may have explained this in one of my first blog entries. I was one of those children that just wanted to be a mom when I got older, so the thought of this not happening in my future, hurt me so deep inside. I had friends having abortions all around me when I was in high school. During this time, I had one of those type of people that doesn't think before he talks, as a Gyno. I had some questions and was hoping I could confide in him to give me some medical answers. Not that I wanted to be a teen mother, but after a first "oops", then a second, and third.... you get the point... I still was not pregnant. I felt maybe there could be something wrong. His reply wasn't what any other doctor had said years later down the road ("Maybe your body just wasn't ready or mature enough at that point" or "Maybe the 'oops moments' weren't at the right timing during ovulation"). Instead, I heard from him, "You probably just can't have kids." Those words crushed me. They kept echoing in my head. Not just the words but the nonchalant way they were said. At that moment, I was walking in those shoes, the same shoes thousands of women walk in daily. And this is one of the main reasons I have chosen to become a surrogate, among many.
And while I'm heading in this direction, here's to hoping my release will be signed by Monday as anticipated, so I can get to meet a new couple! And what great timing... what better week to meet someone new?
Here is a blog I follow regularly. A woman named Christa, and her wonderful blog entry on this special week. It's very informative. I hope you will check it out. It may help some get a better glimpse from the other side.
http://rollercoasterridetoparenthood.blogspot.com/2013/04/i-am-face-of-infertility.html?showComment=1366586194518#c4088891849739925878
Imagine yourself in your childhood.... And that ONE thing you always dreamed you would do or become when you grew up, was one day told to you may not be possible. How would you feel seeing everyone around you achieving YOUR dream effortlessly, taking it for granted, complaining about it as though it was a curse? Next time, before you open your mouth, think about how YOU would feel?
I may have explained this in one of my first blog entries. I was one of those children that just wanted to be a mom when I got older, so the thought of this not happening in my future, hurt me so deep inside. I had friends having abortions all around me when I was in high school. During this time, I had one of those type of people that doesn't think before he talks, as a Gyno. I had some questions and was hoping I could confide in him to give me some medical answers. Not that I wanted to be a teen mother, but after a first "oops", then a second, and third.... you get the point... I still was not pregnant. I felt maybe there could be something wrong. His reply wasn't what any other doctor had said years later down the road ("Maybe your body just wasn't ready or mature enough at that point" or "Maybe the 'oops moments' weren't at the right timing during ovulation"). Instead, I heard from him, "You probably just can't have kids." Those words crushed me. They kept echoing in my head. Not just the words but the nonchalant way they were said. At that moment, I was walking in those shoes, the same shoes thousands of women walk in daily. And this is one of the main reasons I have chosen to become a surrogate, among many.
And while I'm heading in this direction, here's to hoping my release will be signed by Monday as anticipated, so I can get to meet a new couple! And what great timing... what better week to meet someone new?
Here is a blog I follow regularly. A woman named Christa, and her wonderful blog entry on this special week. It's very informative. I hope you will check it out. It may help some get a better glimpse from the other side.
http://rollercoasterridetoparenthood.blogspot.com/2013/04/i-am-face-of-infertility.html?showComment=1366586194518#c4088891849739925878
Monday, April 8, 2013
Just a little bit more.... WAITING!
LOVE LOVE LOVE the waiting game. Have I ever mentioned that I am NOT a very patient person to begin with... THIS IS KILLING ME!!!
I just got off the phone with the attorney. She STILL (after 2 weeks) has not heard from the (in the legal process of...) "Former" IP's attorney. She had sent over a small little formal release that she typed 2 weeks ago and emailed to their attorney. All he had to do was read the small paragraph and tell them to sign it. I can't officially MOVE ON to another couple without it, even though we have a verbal and written statements releasing me from my contract. Boy, oh boy.
On the positive side, I did talk to her a little about some things. Reminding her that every day that passes of me waiting, feels like a whole week. These 9+ weeks of waiting has felt like an eternity!
Changing the subject just a little, I'm super thrilled to meet new IPs! I really can't wait to get moving again in the process. And my attorney says she can't wait to introduce me to a family that is perfect for me.... again.... THRILLED! **To my future IPs, I can't wait to meet you!!! EEKS!**
And now I'm changing the subject once more to something completely un-related... I'm also really excited to be part of a lucky socks package exchange. I started shopping immediately after I got my email. This is for women trying to conceive. Although, I will be conceiving for someone else and in a couple months, I was just happy to be able to send another woman a package to encourage, empower, and lift her spirits. So this exchange came at a perfect time. I know, I know, if Chelsea (the coordinator) found this out she may yell at me haha, buuuuuuuut I used eBay Bucks along with PayPal money I earned and didn't count it toward the $20 I'm supposed to spend on the package... OOPS... actually NOT oops... I was just excited and there was more and more stuff I wanted to put in there so I limited it to the essentials (which I'm guessing cost maybe twice as much as what I'm supposed to spend). I just had to get that off my chest... BOY that felt amazing! Now SHHH don't say anything, that's our secret!
I just got off the phone with the attorney. She STILL (after 2 weeks) has not heard from the (in the legal process of...) "Former" IP's attorney. She had sent over a small little formal release that she typed 2 weeks ago and emailed to their attorney. All he had to do was read the small paragraph and tell them to sign it. I can't officially MOVE ON to another couple without it, even though we have a verbal and written statements releasing me from my contract. Boy, oh boy.
On the positive side, I did talk to her a little about some things. Reminding her that every day that passes of me waiting, feels like a whole week. These 9+ weeks of waiting has felt like an eternity!
Changing the subject just a little, I'm super thrilled to meet new IPs! I really can't wait to get moving again in the process. And my attorney says she can't wait to introduce me to a family that is perfect for me.... again.... THRILLED! **To my future IPs, I can't wait to meet you!!! EEKS!**
And now I'm changing the subject once more to something completely un-related... I'm also really excited to be part of a lucky socks package exchange. I started shopping immediately after I got my email. This is for women trying to conceive. Although, I will be conceiving for someone else and in a couple months, I was just happy to be able to send another woman a package to encourage, empower, and lift her spirits. So this exchange came at a perfect time. I know, I know, if Chelsea (the coordinator) found this out she may yell at me haha, buuuuuuuut I used eBay Bucks along with PayPal money I earned and didn't count it toward the $20 I'm supposed to spend on the package... OOPS... actually NOT oops... I was just excited and there was more and more stuff I wanted to put in there so I limited it to the essentials (which I'm guessing cost maybe twice as much as what I'm supposed to spend). I just had to get that off my chest... BOY that felt amazing! Now SHHH don't say anything, that's our secret!
Monday, April 1, 2013
Little Itsy Bitsy Steps
Boy, oh boy. Here I am in my journey, waiting for my almost FIPs to sign the release that was drafted and sent to their attorney last week. Even though we have gotten a verbal and a written, my attorney would like to have this specific paper signed, notarized, and in her hands before introducing me to new IPs. My guess is that it will be signed by Wednesday or Thursday and I will get the attorney's confirmation call on Friday. I still really am just sitting around playing the waiting game still. It's been a waiting game for over 8 weeks now. This has really tested me and hopefully improved my impatience. I'm really thrilled to meet new potential IPs. I've gotten a brief description over the phone last week, and I just can't wait to meet them. I have my questions modified and typed up and ready to go. So really, no progress from my last blog entry, but some slight new news. I just hate the fact that I think about it every day and it makes my days seem to drag. I've been working on a monster blanket for one of my fertility family members. She isn't choosing to find out the sex but has decided to have a monster themed nursery. I've been trying to pace myself so I don't finish it in a week, and to keep my mind occupied. I've also been making nursing covers, bows, and some other things.
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