After much hestitation, I finally came across the straw that broke the camel's back. I've been asked if I would start a blog, but I have been very unsure until now. I've seen both pros and cons of a blog as a surrogate, and wanting to keep my IPs heart and feelings in consideration. So with the go-ahead from my IM... here I am!
Today is Monday, 12/31/12, the last day of 2012. This is my first journey, and I'm super thrilled to begin with some action. I'm completely done with my rigorous screenings that have taken about 3 months. I'm no longer under the microscope and it feels like I can breathe a little bit more now. I've started my Lupron injections yesterday and this was a huge deal for me. While I don't have a fear of needles, nor am I grossed out by them or blood, there are random times where I pass out from either. So of course, there was the apprehension of the passing out in my mind. 2 days so far and no passing out! YAY ME! I was told they were no big deal, and from just looking at the needle, they didn't seem to be, but once it came down to it yesterday, I'm not going to lie I cried a little with just the thought of having to inject myself. Of course, I psyched myself out for nothing. I just remember this sweet little girl I know that has to do this all the time. And right when I'm about to poke I say "1, 2, 3, *ENTER NAME HERE*" and I don't feel a thing. :0) Now my biggest worry is that progesterone shot. The needles are a lot bigger and I'm told it may bring me to tears because it hurts. I'm just going to take it as it comes and BREAAAAAATHE because I know the end result is going to be amazing and afterall... I've been through worse, so I feel this is a small price to pay for having a beautiful, healthy baby to hand back to my IPs.
